wonder • wander
a collection of thoughts, musings, and milestones
This is an excerpt from a taped conversation Sparkle and I had in 1995.
She calls me “Jill”—my “Bunny name”.
Sparkle: Good idea. Unfortunately, I've never been good at that. Maybe it’s time. Maybe.
Without sounding totally trite here, what I really believe is that I have to take my life one
day at a time, Jill. I'm very much into that. All my past problems stemmed from getting
too worried about too much, too stressed out about what the future had to offer me.
That's what I'm still working on, Jill. That's what I'm working very hard on right now;
finding something to be optimistic about. That’s what I'm doing.
Linda: I use the projection into the future idea to move me into something I want to
make real. ‘Cause, yeah, you can inherit money, or you can marry rich, or you can win
the lottery, but you're still going be alone and you're still going be responsible for what
happens to you and how those things come about. Aloneness is the constant for me.
Personal optimism and crazy determination are what I rely on. I mean, face it, you and I
are never going to be 21 or 35 again. So, we don't have any choice about those years.
We don’t have to know how to do 35, or how to do 42, or 50!
Sparkle: That's right. Maybe I can figure out how to do 51 and a half, or how to do 52.
Linda: Uh huh. And we both can figure out how to do 54, 55. And beyond.
Sparkle: But I have to remember that I'm an alcoholic and an addict. I can’t be
responsible for the past or for any of that anymore. I can just be responsible for today.
"I can’t be responsible for the past or for any of that anymore.
Wonder & Wander
A collection of thoughts, musings, and milestones from author, wonderer, and wanderer, Linda Durham.
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Linda Durham is a human rights advocate, adventurer, author of Still Moving, The Trans-Siberian Railway Journey, An Art and Friendship Project, and a Sixties Manhattan Playboy Bunny. She is the founder and director of Santa Fe's Wonder Institute, which sponsors art exhibitions, lectures, workshops, and salons focused on discovering and implementing creative solutions to contemporary social and cultural issues. For more than three decades, Durham promoted New Mexico-based artists as the hands-on owner of contemporary art galleries in Santa Fe and New York.